It is often, far too easy, to allow yourself to become engulfed in self pity. I know this because for the past month or so that is what I have allowed to happen. Instead of focusing on the good things in my life I allowed myself to be dragged into a world of hurt, pain and sorrow. I focused on all the things I had no control over and let the darkness eat away at my soul.
Life isn't meant to be easy. We are all blessed with fantastic lives and wonderful attitudes. Every now and then i think it is natural for us, as humans, to get sucked into the darkness of depression and stress. It is how you work to get yourself out of the darkness that counts.
I am glad that I can now see what it was doing to me. Taking me away for my friends, shutting down my writing and making me one unhappy person to be around. No is the time for change, time for me to pick myself back up and dust myself off. Most of all it is time for me to stop feeling sorry for myself and to be at peace with the things in my life that i can't change. You can not control what life throws at you, only what you do and how you do it.
I know it wont be easy, these last two years haven't been easy. But I am finally healthy (thank goodness) and my writing was going great. I hopefully don't have to go through any more blood tests (if i be good) and the only doctors I will see will be the ones who treat me for stuff like the common cold etc. And even though I know next year will be just as hard as this year I am ready to accept it and move forward, starting with me writing this blog and committing to getting positive and being happy and productive.
So now for the writing news :)
Well Death Lilly is only 3 months away woo hoo!
I have 6 stories submitted two novellas and four short stories.
A story coming out in a FREE anthology by authors from our goodreads group http://www.goodreads.com/group/show/65690-paranormal-and-horror-lovers
I have one story sitting at 18k waiting for me to get over my funk and write some more and I have a few more sitting at only a few thousand words also waiting to be finished.
Thank you guys for reading this! Taking the time to let me share with you a part of my life. It is a real blessing to have people who are willing and wanting to be apart of your life, even if it is only online!